I just came across a post from Cycleguy’s Spin that really hit home for me. The topic is envy and what it does to us.
I struggle with envy because I do not understand how God can love me as much as the person who does more than I do. I am in constant fear that I am not doing enough for God and I envy those who “have it all figured out.” My son, Joshua, means the world to me. Not a day goes by that I do not thank God at least three times for him. Being a mother has helped me to better understand the love God has for us.
We are children of God. Just as a parent is quick to love and forgive, so is God. I do not expect our 13-month old son to constantly please me by his actions and neither does God expect those things from us. God’s grace saves us and His love redeems us. Growing up, my mom would (and still continues to) tell me she loves me no matter what happens and that she is proud of me as long as I try my best. It seems too easy, but God is proud of us when we are not at our best.
It is not about having it all together, but rather being together. The greatest gift we can give God is to have a strong relationship with Him. The rest will fall into place.
Do you ever question if you are doing enough for God or how He could love you so much? Have you become envious of those who “have it all together”?
Thank you for letting me be real with you.